Well, what an interesting day it has been; I've learned so very much... I suppose I really should stop wandering (or stop pausing to write in this odd little journal) but after almost twice being attacked... I have acquired and axe, and now see fit to wander some more...

I first came across this... angel. How absurd, so see an angel in a place I believed to be hell... but an angel he was. He saved me from some crawling creatures and pointed me in two directions... The sign read Carroll street, where he said... oh what was it... there was a group of "good" people... I assume this is where all the "slayers" and what not are about... and the other direction, I believe the sign read "Sanders street" he said there were... witches and necromancers and the like... I take that now to mean the people that created these horrible walking corpses... But I asked him about a vampire and he said there was one, keeping company with a pirate...

... well, which direction seems more interesting to you?

Despite my effort to avoid them... I did come across a slayer, although I was unaware, and she was helpful to me... Dana... yes, I do owe her a thank you. She did help me... and she wanted to offer me somewhere safe... the idea is laughable though, for a sorry creature like me... Where does an ill little human go? With the goodies who might kill her or the baddies that might just do the same? I despise this, this... not knowing where to go. I'm so unbelievably fucking tired.... and yet, I can not choose a place I believe to be safe... I just want to sleep... and to eat... uuhg, this fever is acting up again.

I'm a foolish girl... I wish... to find this vampire. For all my mistrust of people I... would just like to meet her. Is it not unnatural to wish to live a creature whom you've been living a mockery of, all your life?

I don't intend to answer myself I just intend to keep an eye open for her... or anything else that happens to creep up on me... Perhaps I shall go wonder about the lake side now... if I can draw the energy, that is....

Oh, I almost forgot to mention... the angel mentioned a priest that consorts with demons... I shall like to meet him *wry smile* I can relate to him, as I know what devilish seduction feels like... to be pulled down and under by something dark and sinister...

And perhaps I'm old fashioned in thinking a church, of any sort, would be safe no matter who one is...

And also... apparently there is a serial killer running about... I'll just... remember to take this axe when I wander the town...

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...okay, WHERE THE HELL AM I?

This is completely insane, I could have sworn I was- At least I thought- How could I not be-?

Well, on second thought, losing my mind over it isn't going to help anything. The simple fact is I'm here and I must deal with it.

I've seen plenty of horrible things, but neither in reality or my nightmares have I seen a place quite like this. Does the fog ever lift? Its so horribly unnerving to not be able to see more then two feet in front of yourself... and everything seems abandoned. I haven't even seen another person yet; am I all alone here? *bitter laugh* Well, wouldn't that be fitting...

There may not be people, but I've seen.... things. I don't know what they are. There's a lot of them... and they reek of burnt flesh. I've managed to avoid them so far... but now I'm tired, and I feel feverish... obviously something must be wrong, as I'm sitting here recording my thoughts rather than continuing to move around and avoid whatever it is that is concealed by that horrible fog... but I really am to tired to move anymore *scowl*

is this what after death is supposed to be like? Am I being punished?

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